Today I had to talk myself into being okay with doing something I’m not that familiar with- nothing.
My day went like this, 8am appointment at the Hospital to meet with a midwife (first antenatal appointment.) Due to unforeseen circumstances, we were moved back until 9:15am, which was fine, we saw a lovely midwife and by 10:30am we were informed and excited. (so excited for everything, but that’s another blog post.)
When I got home from the appointment at 11am I was exhausted. I sat on the couch, then I lay there and now (7 hours later) I’m typing this from the same couch without having done anything except walk to the toilet approximately 24 times to wee. That’s was my day…
Now, I love to use my social media platforms to motivate, to make you see that WE CAN DO THE IMPOSSIBLE and be an INSPIRATION! But I also want to be transparent and honest with you. I want to be real and not paint this fantasy where I am invincible and never run out of charge.
If you’re like me, you’ll find it hard to sit in one place for long, you feel like you’re lazy, that you’re missing out on LIFE! There’s always things to do, muscles to move, people to interact with.
My train of thoughts were “You better get up soon and go for a walk or do something. Rev, seriously you have to get up soon, you cannot just sit here all day and watch mind numbing TV.” But my body ached and I felt so heavy. Then came the list of demands, “you NEED to get those dishes done, also there’s 2 loads of washing to be done, make sure you research that lady your midwife referred you to, have you got back to those enquiries, have you looked into that merchandise you’re ordering for your business, have you entered the programming? oh, those emails I need to get back to- crap! Sorry doggies, I seriously don’t think I can walk you today…” The list is endless.
Then I got a text from the husband, (who by the way, does NOT stop working or working out for that matter) People ask where I get a good work ethic from, it’s HIM. He’s a non stop machine, that does everything with so much pride and integrity, it makes me sick.
The text says, “If you need to rest, rest babe it’s been a big two weeks with no days off.xx.”
Genius. Just genius. I honestly thought he was Oprah Winfrey. I find myself in this situation so often, where I am so stressed about what I need to do and forget that it’s actually okay to do nothing, just rest and be still. And NOW more than ever since this is such a special time. Clay also jokingly said, “You know that heart beat you heard today? Yeah, you’re growing a baby! So essentially that’s not nothing!”
It’s made me think, why are we so scared to stop? PRESSURE. Mostly self-applied pressure. (Silly me!)
Today was exactly what I needed, a day off. Filled with couch time and mind numbing-ness. Letting my mind and body completely be at peace and relax. I think its pressure
So I learnt, again, to STOP, take a deep breath and be okay, with doing absolutely nothing.
I’d love to know, do you struggle with doing nothing? Or am I the only one? Leave your thoughts in the comments!